Staying Put For Awhile

I didn't get the job. I thought I would be devasted, I thought I would cry my heart out. I haven't. I haven't shed a tear and I am not sure why. It is probably denial. I haven't allowed myself to really think about it. I guess I am thinking about it now but I still feel detached from the fact. I can look at it clinically and realize that it is probably for the best, that it is not the end of the world, there are more opportunities, etc. All of these things are true but my heart was really truly ready for this change. I guess I will keep protecting my heart and let me head do the leading for awhile. There is always next year.